To preface all of my entries...I was hospitalized in the psych unit at Good Samaritan hospital for 11 days, and was discharged yesterday. I also started the outpatient program yesterday. I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Severe Depression, and PTSD (Post-traumatic stress disorder). I plan on blogging instead of journaling, because I think I'll be more up-to-date this way. Here we go...
Well, I wouldn't say I've relapsed, but I do believe I've regressed. My meds messed me up all day and I ended up missing my outpatient program. I'm feeling more depressed, but I've been told that's a normal part of getting back to the real world after 11 days in a psych ward filled with structure, amazing counselors who were always available, and always stuff to do. Also plenty of really cool people who I already miss. I was feeling quite depressed all day, but then I went to my first NAMI (National Alliance for Mental Illness) meeting tonight, and it was amazing. Exactly what I needed; a true support group. Some of the members even invited me out for their weekly ritual of Portillo's, so I got a chance to know some people better. Plus I got to see some people that I was hospitalized with, so that helps my transition.
My coping skills with anger have definitely improved, I was able to remove myself from stressful/frustration situations last night without blowing a lid, and so that's a baby step that I'm proud of. Now my valium is kicking in, so I'd better sign off before I fall asleep and drop my computer.
Until tomorrow then!
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