Well, it's not easy. Still busy as heck. Needless to say, I am officially HOME from 2 months of residential treatment at Timberline Knolls. It was FANTASTIC. I'm doing PHP there now, so I get there at 9:30, do all the usual programming and meals, and then leave around 8:30. I'd be a little lost if I didn't have this option of stepping down gradually. Plan is 6 weeks of PHP, then IOP probably at Good Sam. Again. :P But it'll be fun to see everyone there and show them how awesome I'm doing! Can't wait to get back to NAMI too. AND can't wait to go to MY church on Sunday! Can't wait to see Jim and Vicky and Laika and Griswald! Can't wait to see Diane and all my crazy cousins! This is my new life. New habits, new behaviors, new outlook on life, and a newly found love for myself. I'm really a different person. Kept all the good traits, out with the grudges, resentments, judgments, and self-hatred/hatred of life. It's so refreshing! It's a full-time job to keep it up, but when you live your whole life one way, it's going to take more than a couple of months to change completely. I learned to embrace my flaws, my past, and my traumas. They made me who I am today. And, if only for today, I love myself :) Dealing with some terrible body image issues...but getting through it. One day at a time!
Love you all, hope you're all well!
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