No One Ever Mentions Fear

Short post cause I gotta go out for smoke break.  Having a rough day today...shared some intense stuff in process group that I had never told anyone, and honestly never PLANNED on telling anyone, surrounding my childhood traumas and sexual abuse.  Promptly had a sobbing panic attack, psychiatrist said I "need to work through this" and "use those DBT skills" and other useless things to someone in the midst of panic.  Eventually got a PRN and took a nap, then woke up to a BHS (behavioral health specialist) banging shit around in my room.  I miss privacy.  SO needless to say my anxiety is on overload, but I AM in fact using my skills, so go me.  Now I have to drag all this stuff up tomorrow for my session with my (awesome) therapist.  Way to work through the tough stuff, Julie!  Yeaaaaah buddy.  OK smoke time.  Later loved ones.